Hey you, out there in the cold
Getting lonely, getting old
Can you feel me?
Hey you, standing in the aisles
With itchy feet and fading smiles
Can you feel me?
Hey you, don’t help them to bury the light
Don’t give in without a fight.
Hey you, out there on your own
Sitting naked by the phone
Would you touch me?
Hey you, with you ear against the wall
Waiting for someone to call out
Would you touch me?
Hey you, would you help me to carry the stone? Open your heart, I’m coming home.
But it was only fantasy.
The wall was too high,
As you can see.
No matter how he tried,
He could not break free.
And the worms ate into his brain.
Hey you, out there on the road always doing what you’re told,
Can you help me?
Hey you, out there beyond the wall,
Breaking bottles in the hall,
Can you help me?
Hey you, don’t tell me there’s no hope at all
Together we stand, divided we fall.
Sometimes it feels like nothing is going right.
I see my self standing in the middle of the maze with confused look on my face while everyone else is carrying their own busy lives. I try to get out of the box that I’m stuck in, but as I try harder and harder, it feels like I’m just bumping into the wall.
Well, I need an escape. I always want to just get out of my ordinary, boring life and travel without having to deal with anyone or anything. I just want to pick up my pencil and sketch book, camera, and one bag pack and travel around the places that can make me forget everything about the world I’m living in.
There’s a lot of things that frustrates me. The fact that most of the girls in our school cares about brands when on the opposite side of the world, there’s uncountable numbers of children risking their lives to have single sip of water. What even more frustrating is that, I don’t have the power to stop it. I’m just a spectator who pretends to blend in. I’m a coward.
Basically, I want either the world to change or let me get out of the world. I need an escape from this maze. ESCAPADE.
Every one of us meet new people in their lives. Out of the people we meet, some are the ones who we just past by and some happen to be ending up our friends or lovers. Accordingly, I met someone during the right time of my life and shared part of me with that person. He was more like a friend who I could share everything that I thought or felt. Whenever I was feeling down, he was the first one I looked for and release my stress. He was always there like a shadow to help and cheer me up.
Maybe things just turned out to be worse without a reason, after all. At some point, both of us got lazy towards each other and we seemed to care less and less. We stopped to appreciate things that each other do but kept on ignoring them. We forgot the importance of littlest things of each other. Guess it just turned out to be that way.
I was frustrated about him being changed from what he used to be in the beginning, and how he seemed so careless about me. I kept on nagging about how he isn’t the same and every time, all he said was he is going to change for me. He started trying so hard to fix it; he called me more often, he would talk to me more often and look like he cared for me. It wasn’t the way I wanted to be. I wanted him to be more sincere at each moment. It didn’t matter whether he called me once, twice or three times. It didn’t matter at all he talked to me first. I just wanted him to be sincere.
Maybe that is when he started getting frustrated. He was trying but it just wasn’t right and enough for me. Those little things started to build up inside our minds and push all our emotions down to the bottom of our hearts. So that is why it ended up like this. It was just the way it turned out to be…
Am I hurt? no.. not really. I think the main key that can help people to get over their sorrowful memories is because they still have the happy memories. I don’t regret the whole part of my life where I spent with him.
After all, I did get help and strength to overcome my obstacles from him. We did have some good memories.
There would be time to time, littlest things remind me of the memories. But after all, this was just a part of my life with someone who I happened to know. It’s just a come and go.
May God bless and keep you always, May your wishes all come true,
May you always do for others
And let others do for you.
May you build a ladder to the stars
And climb on every rung,
May you stay forever young,
Forever young, forever young,
May you stay forever young.
May you grow up to be righteous,
May you grow up to be true, May you always know the truth
And see the lights surrounding you.
May you always be courageous,
Stand upright and be strong,
May you stay forever young,
Forever young, forever young,
May you stay forever young.
May your hands always be busy,
May your feet always be swift,
May you have a strong foundation
When the winds of changes shift. May your heart always be joyful,
May your song always be sung,
May you stay forever young, Forever young, forever young, May you stay forever young.
How old are you? Are you young? or have you had a time in your life when you were young? Every one at least once in their lives experiences their youth where it feels like you can do anything you dream of, but at the same time you feel like nothing is going right. With out a specific reason, the growing uncertainty and unreliability about my future often overwhelms me and causes me to breakdown due to things that don’t always work out the way that I planned it to be. Those times I often wonder the reason that I can not just jump ahead and be at the stage where I’m all grown up. I would be lying if I say that I haven’t faked my self to look and act like an adult just to get out of the pressure of being stuck in my age. I forget the preciousness of being “young” but always suffer from the expectations and limits that I have to follow because of my age. Really, it is hard.
Whenever I feel like I’m lost in the present and struggle to get out of the reality, I listen to this song. May God bless and keep you always, May your wishes all come true, May you always know the truth,May your heart always be joyful, May your song always be sung,Forever young, forever young,May you stay forever young.” As I listen carefully to the lyrics, I realize that there are things that I can do only because I am YOUNG. I have courage because I’m young and I can have growing dreams and passion about my future because I’m young. I have infinite hope about myself because I’m young. I can have a heart full of passion and can seek to know the truth because.. I’m STILL young.
Many adults say. They say that they would do anything to go back to my age. I always didn’t realize why they would want to go back to time where only uncertanity and overwhelmingness exists. Hence, I wanted to get out of this stage of my life. However, I know now. I know why youth is such a precious thing in life. I am going to fill my youth with all my heart and passion so that I won’t regret at all when I grow up. It is true that I would never get to turn back the time and go back to past. But it is also true that I can spend my youth wisely and keep the memories inside of me. Like the lyrics, live Forever Young.
Hey you, out there in the cold
Getting lonely, getting old
Can you feel me?
Hey you, standing in the aisles
With itchy feet and fading smiles
Can you feel me?
Hey you, don’t help them to bury the light
Don’t give in without a fight.
Hey you, out there on your own
Sitting naked by the phone
Would you touch me?
Hey you, with you ear against the wall
Waiting for someone to call out
Would you touch me?
Hey you, would you help me to carry the stone?
Open your heart, I’m coming home.
Hey you, standing in the road
Always doing what you’re told,
Can you help me?
Hey you, out there beyond the wall,
Breaking bottles in the hall,
Can you help me?
Hey you, don’t tell me there’s no hope at all
What I like so much about Pink Floyd is not only their sensational rhythmic instrumentation but also their straight-forward lyrics that reflects and pinches off the truth of reality hidden behind the fake covers of pretenders. Quiet a lot of people in the world always try to cover up their secrets and fake themselves in front of others. They think that by doing that, they can become a better person than what they really are. Sadly enough, I have to admit that I’m one of the pretenders. I pretend that I’m all okay and fine in front of others while I’m really not. I fake my emotions and show kindness to people that I hate when inside, I don’t even want to talk to them. I pretend that I can blend in with the group of people who thinks brand names and money is all that and believe that they can be better than others by those. It is hard. I always fake to go along and understand friends who uses the title of “I study Art so I love fashion,” and spend thier money like toilet papers on trashes like brand bags, clothes and accessories. What a fool am I to bare with them and pretend that I like those too. What a coward I am. What even makes me so angry is that, they are only 15 or 16.
Really? Hey.You. Really? Are those what you are supposed to care or you only care about? Do you not have a single interest towards the people on the opposite side of the world lingering on their life, reaching to have one more breath before they have to end their innocent lives irrelevant to their desires? Hey You. Really? Do you not have a hope or dreams in your heart about your future? What part of using up money, that green piece of trash, can make you a better person? What part of bringing brand wallets and bags to school and secretly attempting to gain attention help you step closer to your dream? Sorry. Do you even have a dream?
Hey you. Do you not know? Do you really not know you are the kind of people who doesn’t have a core but only a weak shell that covers up your real sides?
Please. Let me know, whether I really have to blend in with you. I’m afraid that I might turn .. turn out to be the way that it’s like you. Do I even have a hope? Do I have a hope that I can change both you and me? Just. Just..let me know.
Temptation. Everyone has a time where they have to choose the choice of their life atleast once in their life. Following their choices, there always are the basis of temptations. When I saw this short film, something about this film made me so guilty. It made me feel like this film knows something about me that makes me so evil and fake. Not only me, but people around me also have a tendency to sacrifice others inorder to gaine their own needs. However, what we are really missing out when we only see the close future ahead of us is that, after all, things are always working out the way that it is planned out to be and what ever we choose to do, the consequences come back to us no matter what. Things happen for a reason.
It is ofcourse hard to resist the temptation. We think. One shot. One shot or one choice, that is all it takes to get us out of this hard, tedious life. However, is that really the truth ? We always need to think; if that single tempation is really woth it of putting down or values. I believe the answer is no.
* Remember to play the video and listen to the music !
When I write something about a movie, I try not to focus on what that movie is about but try to put importance on the impression I get from the movie. The reason why I do this is because what really matters in discussing about a movie is not the plot or topic of it but it is how each individual felt about it.
The second movie I want to bring up about is “The Hottest State.” Well, this movie is nothing close to a film that lingers around you after you watch it, in sense of message or meanings. To be honest, it doesn’t really give you something to learn and doesn’t really shift your perspectives. Despite that fact, one thing for sure is that this movie makes you feel happy and relaxed while you watch it.
Since I was a great fan of Ethan Hawke, when I realized that he produced “The Hottest State,” my expectations towards this movie and what he tried to say through the scenes were pretty high. Sometimes I found his cute, humorous sense from some of the lines, and other times I found deep and original thoughts that he wanted to to portray. By watching how two young couples carry on their relationship; repetition of fight and reunion, I was connected to the essence of love and importance of finding someone who really connects.
What was more impacting about this movie was the music. The soundtracks in this movie came to me so friendly and warmly, so the music still lingers on me more than the scenes or lines of the movie. One of the lines that really came into my mind from the song called “Never See You” was the phrase “When you smile and took my hand and when you said there was no question when you kindly thanked me, I knew then. But I would never see you again.” It just gave me the impression of cute love and little feelings of anxiousness when you encounter someone you think is the one for you. After all,music reminds me of the scenes, and scenes reminds me of the lines. An attempt to live another life by acting, William contrasts with Sarah, who wants to be herself and represent her in front of others through singing. The attraction of people who are opposite from each other adds on to the theme of this movie.
Sing, Act, and Love. You will learn connection between those three things by this movie, “The Hottest State.”
Before Sunrise. This movie is probably the one of my favorite movies that shifted my point of view and values the most. Not that I am not aware of other classics that has a great message in the film it self, but I got a huge impact by every single details of this movie. The way two characters talk, what they talk about, how they act, and the beautiful background of Europe, I can not forget a single detail about this movie. To begin with a brief story line, this movie draws a plot based on the day followed by two young strangers’ encounter during their trip. A handsome American tourist, Jesse, sees French student Celine on the train from Budapest to Vienna. Feeling a specialty between each other at first sight, Celine and Jesse decides to get off from the train and get to know each other. Scheduled flight back to America the next day, Jesse spends his once in a life time with Celine, traveling on the bricks of the road, and they come to see the connection between each other, the essence of their lives, hopes, passion, and love.
Daydream Delusion
Daydream delusion
Limousine Eyelash
Oh, baby with your pretty face
Drop a tear in my wineglass
Look at those big eyes
See what you mean to me
Sweet cakes and milkshakes
I am a delusion angel
I am a fantasy parade
I want you to know what I think
Don’t want you to guess anymore
You have no idea where I came from
We have no idea where we’re going
Launched in life
Like branches in the river
Flowing downstream
Caught in the current
I’ll carry you. You’ll carry me
That’s how it could be
Don’t you know me (poet hands poem back)
Don’t you know me by now
The scene that had the most impact on me was where Jesse and Celine was walking by the river and a street poet came up to them offering to write them a poem. He wrote a poem “daydream delusion,” and every line of the poem came in to my heart with great excitement and impact. I can’t forget their faces with beatiful background of river, and the mysterious but friendly image of the street poet. This movie made me want to tour Europe later in my life time. It made me want to want a person who I can share my everything, my thoughts, my dreams, hopes, passion and love. The look that Jesse had when he looked at Celine, and the look that Celine had when she looked at him; it felt like they had the world. Conversation of Jesse’s grandmother, about death, about thier life… everything was so new and meaningful to me. I was especially attracted by the fact that everything they did in the movie was so unplanned and was an offhand jest. Because I always dreamt of having trip with a special and unique person who I can really feel my emotinos and soul connect, this movie remains unforgettable in my heart.